Well my waxing session went well, I then picked up Bec & we went to Corio shops for a coffee, I dropped in some slides to be turned into photos, Rabbit photo shop had a special of 50 cents per slide normally $1.50 ea, so I selected 92 pics of our childhood. Whilst at the shops I broke my handbag & smashed my sunglasses beyond repair.
I sent Ashley a Happy Birthday text on Thursday she turned 14, where does the time go? The weekend arrived & I felt really crappy, suffering from nightmares & panic attacks. I took Bec & Paige to the market on Saturday and bought myself a new pair of sunnies for $10, I never spend more than that on glasses as Dave is forever borrowing them, he stretches & scratches them. Dave's been working day & nights to try & bring in some urgently needed money, so he's absolutely exhausted, the other night he did 3 seperate jobs finally arriving home at 5am, grabbing 3 hours sleep and then doing a day shift. I don't sleep very well when he's not here.
It has taken all my willpower this week not to end up in the Psych hospital again, the voices are back and I'm finding it hard to concentrate, I have the most overwhelming urge to hurt myself. To overcome them I've been keeping myself busy with Bec & Paige. Bec rang me on Tuesday & informed me that Luke has applied for sole custody, that really put me in a tail spin, I ended up having a full blown panic attack, vomiting, headaches, all over body shakes, so Dave took me out for dinner ( I was totally incapable of cooking) to Ripper Roast, we then had coffee at the Texas Pizza Shop & called in on Bec but she was out. I called into the accountants today & picked up our BAS, I almost burst into tears as we've got a bill over $3500 payable by this Friday & I don't have it due to having no work for over 3 months, I've also got to pay Dave's tax bill & that's $1900, so I've been stressing over that, we've got over &10,000 outstanding to us but that doesn't help in the short term. I picked Bec up today (Wednesday) and took her to legal aid as she had an appointment with a lawyer, due to Luke's past history he wont get sole custody but will have visitation rights, once Paige is older he will be allowed to have her overnight and some weekends, but first he needs to find accommodation. Tomorrow I'm taking Bec & Paige to Werribee to get meat from Tasman Meats, she also needs to buy a high chair. This Friday I've an appointment with Centrelink regarding my disability pension, & I'm sure I've incurred a debt, & I will probably lose my pension altogether, I hope not as I wont be able to afford my Psych meds. My private health cover does not kick in until 26th June, so that will help the situation a bit. Well that's been my week, hopefully March will be better.
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